goatsongs: smile (coming apart at the seams)
Nakahara Chuuya ([personal profile] goatsongs) wrote2017-09-04 09:41 pm
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Heart Seed Ruin Log

[You suddenly find yourself in the entrance to a library. Well, it should be an entrance - if you turn around, there isn’t a door behind you, but there’s a desk that says ‘RETURNS’ and a desk that says ‘HELP’, both with containers full of pens on them. There’s also rows and rows of bookcases all stuffed full of books.

Naturally, both the returns desk and the help desk are staffed: the returns desk by a bright-looking young boy, and the help desk by a serious-looking man.

Beyond the shelves of books, there’s a steel door to the left, as well as a wooden door to the right.]
sunflowering: Do not take (So many regrets)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
Nakahara-san. . .

[Her heart breaks. Approaching the cell, her stomach clenches, gut wrenching. He looks broken, curled upon himself, face hidden. Throat tight, she kneels down upon the ground, hands gently clutching the bars, long hair hiding her face for now. She can feel tears sting the corner of her eyes. She can practically feel his pain.]

You've suffered for a long time all alone.
sunflowering: (And still I can't love without guilt)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
Because it's painful? Because it reopens the wounds?

[She asks quietly, remaining as she is for the moment.]

Is being alone really the answer? [It can't erase the past, and doesn't change what happened.]

Whenever... whenever I was scared as a child, or in pain. Whenever my past came to haunt me, there was always someone there to pat my head. During those times, even when it hurt, I knew that even if I couldn't stand on my own, there was someone else there to help me back up to my feet. Sometimes it's impossible to stand up all on your own, unless another is there beside you.
sunflowering: Do not take (Please father...)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
[That expression... just how many times has he been betrayed? The pain mirrors Zero, the same distrust and sorrow written upon his face. Though his had been marred with hatred.]

I am weak.

[She glances down, a bitter smile touching her lips.]

I'm supposed to be the scariest most powerful being back home, you know? I thought being a vampire made me strong, but- I'm terrified all the time. Power has never once helped me to feel secure. It never helped me hold onto the people I love.

[Her heart hurts, chest churning. Is she even qualified to talk to him like this? When sometimes it feels like everything has begun to crash down upon her.]

You know... I've been betrayed and hurt by the people I love most. Even now back home I'm struggling to understand why. Sometimes it hurts so badly, I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know anything, and I'm constantly lost.

[Right now she's nothing by a lion cub surrounded by predators that want to consume her.]

But even though I keep chasing after the reason as to why that person hurt me, or why my best friend is also my enemy, I... even when I was completely lost and just wanted to disappear, there were people that picked me up. There's still people that want to see me smile, who put themselves on the line for my sake or risk their lives.

[Reaching through the bars she tries to stretch out to him.]

Even if I've been betrayed and hurt, and even if I'm weak, there are still people that accept me for me. Sometimes it's painful, but... it's even more unbearable alone. [So very lonely and devastating.]

That's why, Nakahara-san, you don't have to be alone. Even if you're weak, or you've made mistakes or are scared, it's okay. It's okay, because I'm here, as well as the rest of your friends.

[It's not just her. She's confident about that. A person like him lights up the world around him.]

Everyone cares about you. No one thinks less of you. You're incredible. You've endured so much pain, but you still manage to smile. You helped me when I had no one else to turn to. You helped me find a job, and have done so much. I don't think you're weak at all. You're strong, and brave, and a genuinely caring person. If anything, I truly admire you.
Edited 2017-10-16 03:00 (UTC)
sunflowering: (Don't leave me alone in a world so cold)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Teary-eyed a watery smile touches her lips when he gently places the key within her palm. He doesn't belong in a cage, forever locked up by the emotions that have devastated him through the years. She wastes no time unlocking the cage, fingers working fast until she hears a click.

Immediately she swings the bars open, and before he can move or say anything, her arms wrap around him. She's sorry that he had to suffer. That he's done so alone, bottling all those emotions up. Embrace tight, she holds him tight. He doesn't have to struggle alone any more.]
sunflowering: Do not take (I didn't mean to hit THAT hard!)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
[She glances around her in surprise, the scenery abruptly fading, when at last it appears they are outside the library once more. Blinking, she looks to her side and locates him, slowly stirring from his sleep. Kneeling beside him, she immediately checks him over.]

Nakahara-san! Nakahara-san, are you all right?
sunflowering: (Don't really like)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ . . .

That's a line only a teenager is allowed to use. Reaching out she pokes him in the cheek.]


Nakahara-san, the library is on fire.
sunflowering: Do not take (Don't you love happy endings?)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
Aha...

[She laughs, smiling, wiping a couple lingering tears from her eyes.]

Somehow I knew that would wake you up.
sunflowering: Do not take (I'll be there for you)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Her smile softens and she leans over to gently draw him to her once more. Just this last time, Chuuya.]

I was worried about you. If you're going to sleep, lets get you inside, okay?
sunflowering: (Here puppy...)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
Do you want me to carry you? Can you walk?

[It's an honest question...!!!]
sunflowering: (Life is like a box of chocolates)

[personal profile] sunflowering 2017-10-16 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
[Yeah but he was just imprisoned in his own heart.]

Okay...

[Let her worry a little though. Which is why when she stands up she turns around and crouches.]

But if you're still tired you can hop on my back.