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"Yo, it's Nakahara Chuuya. I'm way too busy to talk to you right now, so leave a message and I'll get back to you. Probably."

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[loopsbian]

[ she moves to swat his hand away... and stops halfway, balling her hands into fists instead. ]

Don't say such things. Besides, that isn't the point and you know it, you oaf.

[ she sighs after a moment, looking away from chuuya as the anger finally boils away. this whole situation is a mess, isn't it? it's beyond messy. but it isn't as if yelling at chuuya will solve anything, no matter how obtuse he might be. ]

...either way, it doesn't matter. [ she sounds almost sullen. ] I told you, didn't I? I don't intend to chase this down for some time. We couldn't go back to Hinamizawa even if I wanted to, so there's no point in doing such things right now.

[ if it sounds like an excuse... well, there's a good reason for that. ]

[goatsongs]

[Isn't it the point, though? That Satoko shouldn't have to suffer through that, and neither should Rika?]

Alright. There's nothing I can do about it either.

-But for as long as you're here, I promise you can confide in me. I might not always understand, but you're important to me.

[loopsbian]

There isn't. I'm glad you understand that.

[ it's a cruel, harsh thing to say. she feels bad just saying it. and when chuuya continues, she feels really bad. so she breathes in, and breathes out, and finally admits- ]

...I don't want to do it. [ it's hard to even say it. but once it's said, it continues to tumble out. ] I... I didn't think things would ever work out like this. Like they have here. But now that they have, I don't want to give that up.

[ her fists clench at her sides. ]

Is it so wrong to just want things to stay like this for now?

[goatsongs]

I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Anyone would rather have their important person stay with them without - any of that involved.

[Whether or not they would resort to that in the first place, of course this is better.]

[loopsbian]

None of it had to be involved! I tried to talk to her! I told you that! And she just...

[ her hands ball into fists, trembling. shaking. ]

She just wouldn't...

[ the stress of it all comes crashing down at once. arguing with chuuya. arguing with rika. lying to thanatos. it all crashes through, and her hands move to cover the obvious tears in her eyes. ]

[goatsongs]

[He should be more upset with her than he is, he knows - but that doesn't even cross his mind when he sees her cry.

Gently, he wraps his arms around her in a warm, soft hug.]

I'm here. You're not alone.