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"Yo, it's Nakahara Chuuya. I'm way too busy to talk to you right now, so leave a message and I'll get back to you. Probably."

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[loopsbian]

Perhaps so.
I know little of your life and your own trials.
That said, my question is not one of "shoulds" and "should nots."

Mr. Chuuya, are you pleased to be alive?
Knowing that you have died once, and will near undoubtedly die again, is this life still worthwhile?

[goatsongs]

I guess I am. I wouldn't have met you, otherwise.

[That alone might make the pain worthwhile.]

[loopsbian]

[ this time, it's satoko's turn to stay silent. a minute passes, then two, and it's halfway through the third when she finally says: ]

I'm glad.
Really, truly glad.

I hope she feels similarly.

[goatsongs]

I can't speak for her feelings. Only mine.

[loopsbian]

I know. I wouldn't ask you to try.

[goatsongs]

I wouldn't know what it's like to die over and over again, either. My only advice there is 'try not to go out through brain disease, it sucks'.

[loopsbian]

I have no intention of dying if I can help it.
As little as that may mean.
But...

I'm certain it's not quite the same.
And if you don't want to dwell on the past, far be it from me to force you.
But if you should ever require someone to speak with who understands,
I was in a similar boat all too recently.

[goatsongs]

Do you want to talk about it?

I appreciate the offer, but I'm not going to pressure you to talk if you'd rather not.

[loopsbian]

I should be asking the same to you!
For me, I'm really not sure there's much to say on the matter...
It's simply an offer of solidarity, not a concern of mine.

[goatsongs]

I don't know if there's anything for me to say either. It's a shitty way to go, and I don't like thinking about it, but I can't do much about it now.